It may not be today, it may not be tomorrow. But freedom comes.
What I am learning lately, though, is that my idea of freedom can overlook something very important. I long for the day when I can spend my days doing my dream activities. But these days have responsibilities that I do not see as freeing.
We long for the day when we can ____________. Whatever it is, looking at those self-defined boundaries as the moment when you can be truly free, creates a feeling of being stuck.
The truth is, though, that sometimes freedom comes in boundaries.
“…it is hard for you to kick against the goads.” –Acts 9:5 (NKJV)
Jesus’ words to Paul, asking him why he continues to fight, ring true for me. I fight the boundaries around me, longing for “that day” when my definition of freedom comes to pass. I kick against the reality of my world.
But without the discipline of working through this time of life, without the pattern and expectation of these boundaries, the freedom of which I dream might be stolen. Stolen by stress, embarking on a time of life for which I may not be ready. Stolen by worry as I fight to do it on my own, in my own time. Stolen because the energy required to fight the goads is wasted, unusable for more productive work in the here and now.
And I see there is freedom where I am. Freedom to choose discipline over grumbling. Freedom to choose peace over discontent. And freedom to live this day the Lord has made in a way that glorifies Him.
“This is the day the Lord has made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.” –Psalm 118:24 (NKJV)
This scripture, powerful on its own, becomes more-so when we back up a couple verses to read the full context.
“I will praise You, for You have answered me, and have become my salvation. The stone which the builders rejected has become the chief cornerstone. This was the Lord’s doing; it is marvelous in our eyes. This is the day the Lord has made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.” –Psalm 118:21-24 (NKJV)
The Lord made this day in the context of our salvation. When I see only boundaries to my self-defined “freedom”, I lose sight of salvation in my soul.
There is freedom today. Take your eyes off the horizon of “that day” and see the freedom at store in the now.