I sat…
praying for the Spirit to move,
praying for wisdom.

I sat…
in the living room of strangers,
led in worship by a familiar face,
surrounded by old and new acquaintances.

I sat…
begging to not get sucked into something God didn’t want me to do.

I knew…
this would be my new church family,
the people of God I would call “home” on Sundays.

I knew…
ministry had sucked me in and spit me out in the past.

Scratch that…
leadership had sucked me in and spit me out in the past,
and I knew I didn’t want that again.

But I didn’t know what to do.

Hours later, getting ready for bed, the thought struck me…
I don’t need to lead.
I don’t even want to lead.

I can support the vision of leaders.
I can align with the mission of the group.
And I can use my gifts and talents to support that mission.

But I don’t need to lead.
Not anymore.

What a weight off my shoulders.
What a relief to lay down a mantle I was never meant to carry.

What a relief to lay down a mantle I was never meant to carry.

What do you need to lay down?

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