- 2 Samuel 16:15-20:26
Absalom did a number on his father. The son charmed the people, gained their favor, and went against his father for the throne. Father and son became enemies, the kingdom torn asunder. And upon news of Absalom’s death, when deliverance from his enemy had come, David’s heart cried out:
“Then the king was deeply moved, and went up to the chamber over the gate, and wept. And as he went, he said thus: ‘O my son Absalom—my son, my son Absalom—if only I had died in your place! O Absalom my son, my son!’ And Joab was told, ‘Behold, the king is weeping and mourning for Absalom.’ So the victory that day was turned into mourning for all the people. For the people heard it said that day, ‘The king is grieved for his son.’ And the people stole back into the city that day, as people who are ashamed steal away when they flee in battle. But the king covered his face, and the king cried out with a loud voice, ‘O my son Absalom! O Absalom, my son, my son!'” –2 Samuel 18:33-19:4, NKJV
The father was grieved by the death of his rebellious son. David did not celebrate his own deliverance; instead he mourned for his lost boy.
Your Heavenly Father mourns your sins; He does not seek to disown, nor shame, nor denounce you. Instead He cries out, “If only I had died in your place.” And so He did. All so He could have his child back. All so He would not have to say an eternal goodbye.
Go to Him now. His mourning is greater than your fear. He longs for you back. He longs to hold you again as His child, for you never really left His grasp. You only turned from His face.